Wed, 14/11/2007 - 18:13 by Lost
That is how i feel right now.
Just numb.
Because i have no idea how else to feel.
I saw him today, first time in ages, and I'm so confused.
Im supposed to be over him. It was the first time i'd talked to him without butterflies in my stomach and the shakes. But i just felt confused. For the first time ever i was lost for words, i just smiled and nodded and kinda froze. I dont feel the same way about him, but i dont know how i feel. It just hurts i guess, seeing him and thinking of how many hours i used to waste each day just thinking of him. When now, it's pretty obvious he didnt feel the same. He lead me on. From whatever angle you look at, he lead me on.
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Mon, 01/12/2008 - 21:19 by Lost
ooph.
SO drama aredoing all hollywood themed work do's andim gonna be a waitress.
itll be ace, cause all the girls are doing it too :')
it will be so funny ><
omm rhydiaan (popular kid) just asked me if theres any boys in my life
i hate these questions hahaha :')
dear mee :|
x
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Sat, 29/11/2008 - 23:55 by Lost
i made my choice.
im glad i did.
i took a risk, and right now, its paying off :)
he likes me :)
i like him :)
and noone else matters
ive listened to the warnings, but i know what im doing.
i have the best support system ever, id be a fool not to take a risk.
im 16 for gods sake, i shouldnt be so serious.
im glad i spoke to all the tred girls today, they make things seem so simple :D
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Fri, 28/11/2008 - 18:23 by Lost
but lets not ask why it's not right :)
weird timeesss.
so there was a party yesterdaaay, and erm i got off with him :)
eeeeeeeeeek!
it was lush :)
minus the fact there was a big circle of people around us.
but seriously he had his like hand on my bare shoulder and it gave me shivers :)
only thing is, todaaay was a mini hell.
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Mon, 24/11/2008 - 20:36 by Lost
i have been online for hours
and the minute i go to bath he comes online
and i wasnt here.
i know its no big deaaal, but im im like grrrr
:(
"we're one mistake from being together,
but lets not ask why it's not right."
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Mon, 17/11/2008 - 21:56 by Lost
but lets not ask why it's not right
you wont be seventeen forever
and we can get away with this tonight"
i love that song :P
soo my weekend was quite amusing
the whole up aarons drink thing was . .. well .. memorable at least,
and saturday was a proper good laugh
but hwat i loved was sunday.
visiting.
i love my family,
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Tue, 04/11/2008 - 21:23 by Lost
:|
this could actually be happening.
It's quite worrying tbh
me with a bf
it is actually possible.
so yeah, things are a little crazy right now.
Bring on more butterflies ;)
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Mon, 03/11/2008 - 20:25 by Lost
today was supposed to be a day of work.
what did i do ?
stay in bed until 2
then do hardly any work at all.
damn it.
which means every free lesson tomorrow is gonna be filled with me doing work :/
ahh well it''s not that bad.
i wonder what will happen in school tomorrow,
please dont let there have been any rumours.
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Sun, 02/11/2008 - 17:35 by Lost
how much i like him.
he's turned me off the only decent boy i liked
the ones who was an actual possibility
and now he's in my head 24/7.
it's ridiculous.
absurd.
i want things to work out okay.
i pray to god that they work out okay.
i dont want my happy bubble popped.
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Sun, 02/11/2008 - 00:28 by Lost
i want him
i want him
i want him
i know he's a cheat i know he's a sleaze.
but my god
i want that boy.
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